BIG UPDATE FOR REALZ!

Haven't updated in ages but that possibly because I'm done with trivial stuff like shopping and collecting ... things.

HUGE NEWS!

We're having a baby! I'm about 4 months along, getting as big as a house but the doc says i need to gain more weight. The max total for pregnancy is 30 lbs which is like total by the end. I hope. Anyways i do have phobia about gaining weight.

i hate absolutely passive-aggressive guys that tell you to lose weight for "health" and damage you so much. there was a discussion about this on one of the popular blogs recently and apparently it is such a common trick for certain kind of (low-life) men. And apparently this men are quite prevalent in society since every other comment was about a lady that had a man do this to her sometime in her past or present. It's quite ironic especially since the men that do this aren't quite prizes either and could possibly be absolute porkers that hate themselves so much that instead of taking it out on themselves, they take it out on their women.

30 lbs shouldn't be so bad to get off with breast feeding. But i guess i'll never get to be a size 0 or 00 ever. At the very least i hit a size 4 even with these 34Ds bugging me and making me go up sizes in certain stores .. but heck at least I have been in a Size 4 dress! That's quite an achievement for such a fattie like I was before, eh? Once I gain all that pregnancy weight, I'll be back at my fattie weight. It's a little scary.

Ok i have to admit i have not quite stopped spending. Instead of spending on me .. now I'm spending on the baby. We're doing up a room in our place for the nursery but the problem is that we're not sure whether we want to know whether it's a boy or girl. There's something quite classic about not knowing you know until the little tyke comes out. The only problem is .. how do you prepare .. blue or pink?! Or just buy both and save the other .. for the next one? :D

Besides being big I love being preggers. It's so difficult to describe but there's something so fulfilling and amazing about it. The hubbie is overjoyed of course. It'll be the first grandkids on his family's side. I know he's excited about having a boy to carry on the family name and it makes him completely adorable.